Friday, November 4, 2011

Errors of Beauty



I had simply stopped looking
Tired of straining my neck, to catch
What it was blowing around in those trees
Tip, tipping over, till I lied on my back
Dog tired.

There was a catch though!
When there was a catch, thousands of pounds
Of golden gleaming, fishy, flesh, flopping
All in my arms, for me
Sweet mouthfuls, Dream feast, leaving me
Voiceless, Smacking my lips

“No more of that” I thought.
Too raw to cook, to salty for the sea
Not for me, Intangible
Left me sick and sorry for a whole minute!
Vomiting for a year!

I went to the doctors all right!
She had never seen anything like it
“Plenty of rest I suggest”
Giving me capsules of sleep
And a dead bird, as is tradition
Light as air, still twitching





As any good patient, I tossed
My medicine right out the window
Keeping the corpse for keepsake
And went straight to pacing, barefooted
Till I bled, in and in
The hall of the dead

Every night, all twenty-four hours, I kept this up
My watch, turned in for a spear,
Setting myself, As some statue
Cold and perfect – Aside
The queens open grave- Slave
 For the afterlife

I was never lonely though, not really - not really
Between the vice of the earth and the sky
Witness to Cleopatra’s phantom
Rising one year in every ten
Gasp, sigh, Mouth to mouth,
Ash and Formaldehyde
Her breath my breath, leaving me alive
Appreciator of gorgon songs
Hands on hips, cemented
Now so sordidly solid stone
That classic marble white, pleasant and opaque
Ears of rock only phantom words could pass through
To find a heart that sung its song






A sight for stone eyes! A visitor!
Forms that made me proud and wanting
Hercules and Persephone in Hades
Stone to flesh, transmuted
Clumsy faun’s legs
I ran with them, then flew
Without looking…

For the first time, I rose with the rose
Was blue with the blue – Swimming with the swell assailing the reef!
What relief, breathing water!
Not till, sowing the earth
I realized, I still held the long foul fowl
And dropped the thing altogether

Just like “that”, Immediately
The thing sprouted, Maggots into roots
Then leaves, shoots, branches from the bones - Already
With a trunk as thick as me
A plum tree- expediently
Half budding, half bearing fruit
A violent violet, which I took – enough
For Hercules, Persephone and I
Which we two, bit into, then fell asleep forever







When I woke the next day
There was nothing but wheat about me
Celebrating the sun and the wind that set it shimmering
Like the clear surface of a lake
Reflecting from zenith to nadir
Everything above it, again and again
A thousand times for every ten

I was sure of it now – Me!
King for Queen Persephone!
Blood boiling, steaming off in shouts
“Arrow for an archer! Mark for a marksman”!
I came bolting! ... but she had vanished
Nowhere to be found - without a sound
Landing in the dirt

Disbelief – even as I wiped away
The clay, caking to my face – hands and knees
Deep in it, Red and damp
Clinging to my skin – to my regret
Earth without fire

Stuck in the mud –I looked
All over, when out from my head sprung, singing
Cleopatra’s, decadent cadaver
Having grown deaf, I had to
Shout as I pulled myself from the mire
“I am not afraid of the deep, nor the rivers end!”
This killed her – and she laughed
As I sailed down where I desired



When I was paying attention again
I heard the faintest voice in the world
Croaking, “Friend, friend, friend”
Astride a open grave - speechless
A feeble old man sat, pointing, to the end
The tombstone read aloud
“Hercules”

Mockery!
Too much! When his eyes spilled out like water
Melting to a puddle at those feet - incomplete
Torn and blistered, revealing the grain of wood
Grasping after me with a hundred set of hands
Facing a lion’s mane then a cobra’s hood
Imposter!
I nearly choked! So I strangled
Laid, and buried him in the grave

I was sad, sitting on the curb of Night’s town
Unable to bow or wow as I wished, at the flocks
Of grey pleated skirts with high socks
 Flowing, floating on the smoke of cigarettes
No regrets, atop parapets, its laughable and laughing
Spirited by the hot wind of their lovers
“Quelli che amo, io amo sempre”
Going, going, gone.





Tapping tabletops, till a tapping called me on and on and after.
I stepped on creaking steps
To the marching drums of windows rapping
 Home -Two stories shaking
Animals going in, Animals coming out
Eyes within, I without

My feet the followers of feet
Members of a length of lonely coattails
All the endless procession of hanging tongues
Filing forwards, on the flat earth flattened by our feet
Until we meet with darkness and shuffle to our seats
An audience of dark eyes murmurs
Unwrapping dusty pockets melted sweets
A roar of rustling in a dim retreat

Who am I? Should it matter?
I also wear my coat to keep me warm! Wearing away the wares I handle!
Measuring my thumb against the moon! I balance eggs on dollar spoons!
The theaters velvet cushions likewise take my ass’s form

There is silence as clamor turns to clapping- Signaled
By the curves of curtain unpeeled
Ribbons of red, gives way to inarticulate floor, on which
A painted face presents herself
Dress of undress, thighs and breasts
Penumbra darker than its shadow
She for me! Selected, participator in some pageantry.
I rise to meet her but would not could not dare complete her
She pulls my arm and peels back my skin
Wound wide enough to whisper in
And she does-
“You knew me, I am the sea dried up by the sun”
 Ill have none
“You’re a painting, poorly done. The case for a heart never won!”
She’ll take all
I in her hands so teeny, tiny, small
Faced with a face, mute and moving
I can only listen to their call
And to the delight of the cheering, jeering crowd
I lay her on the stage

Monday, October 17, 2011

Blue Caban: Still Lifes

From Nov 12th-15th, a set of eight prints of my recent still life photographs will be displayed in the 1019A Gallery in the A+D building on the SUNY Purchase campus.
The opening reception will begin Saturday, Nov 12th, at 7pm.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Friday, July 15, 2011

Monday, July 11, 2011

Thursday, July 7, 2011